The best things in life are free!

爱人不要多，一个真心真意就够了；钱不贪多，够用就好了；朋友不需多，三两知己即富足；虚名不需多，简简单单的快乐便足够。 如果非贪多，只希望这个世上树多一点，花多一点，阳光多一点，爱心多一点。(by Owen Yap, 叶剑锋） 一次愉快的谈话，欣赏美丽的夕阳，都可以很开心。 A real happiness is free! It can be a delightful conversation, a beautiful sunset or a walk along the beach. The best things in life are free.

Can I be truly happy again ever? i wonder. There I s always something intrigued and recalled my deepest sorrow.

Wake up, Lean

After a tired working day, I was in gloomy mood. I feel lost in future path. What kinds of job I want to do? What industry to work with? I was confusing. Sometimes I wished I am not that busy. I like to live in relax and cozy. But sometimes, the ambition me suddenly pop out. I wish I know what I want. I know myself. Deep down inside me, there are more to discover. This is just not where I want to be yet. Sooner after work, I met with a friend which we have been closed in college. We talked for hours. I felt relaxed after catch up with him. I told him I am afraid I might lost the original me in this routine daily life and working society. I told him I am still that ambitious as last time I was in the college. It just a temporary low time. I want to explore the world. I want to enjoy the feeling of backpacking again. When I was driving home, I think a lots. Suddenly, I feel like my big brother was talking with me. He told me: " Lean, go ahead, think positive and always have faith,  I know you can do it. I know you are strong. You got nothing to lose. Just take good care of mom and yourself." I love you and I miss you. It have been 8 months since we lose you. I always see you in my dreams and miss you so much until my heart is pain, until I don't have any faith towards the world and life. I feel I am getting better. Today when I drive home from work, I feel like I know how to find the positive and strong lean back. I know I have to. I believe so. Our hearts divide into parts. Deep down inside, there is a place always for you, a place always feel regret we dint growing old together, always thinking and missing you, always pain for you, always love you, you will always be there. Another part of is the faith, motivation, determination and willpower to continue my journeys, to live, to do what you always to do, support and provide better lives for our love ones, love them and protect them. Everyone in the world got their own bother, concern, trouble and worry. Even those who born in affluent family, also got their own things to bother. They are not like what we think. I have to stop sympathize myself and hate the world. I have to start living again! My big brother's spirit will always with me. I CAN DO IT! I can be the one my love ones proud of. Cheer, Lean!

I Love Good People!

Today after I finished my lunch, when I got back to my car, it couldn't be started. I freaked out.Because I was out of town and I did not know any mechanic here. Then,good thing happen! There was one mechanic happen to pass by. He stopped and offered to help. He helped me to jump start my car. I drove it to the service center that I always go. I am so appreciate that. May god bless him. Thank you.

A Plant In My Garden

Few months ago, I saw one of the plants in our garden was almost withered. Then I started to pay attention on it. Deeply inside my heart, I wished it can be healthy again because it has some special meaning to me. My late father bought it for me when I was eight. Ergo, I watering it everyday and took good care of it. Today, I noticed it grows luxurious! Then I realized it is the same theory in our life. Time and efforts will heal us. We will get through it as long as we have the persistence and faith.

A call to remind

Yesterday night I was reminded how realistic people can be. One moment they are your friends, the next seconds they are not. A friend telling me he is doing insurance business now. He have met so many different types of people. Some friends supporting him although they already bought the plan with others. Some said they are cool to hang out and hear him sharing the thing but they back off after that.They ignoring his calls, pretending their schedules are full. I just don't understand why these kinds of "friends" don't want to be honest to him if they don't feel comfortable to meet him. Why avoiding him like he is a virus. He just tried to do his job diligently. He won't force you to buy if you don't want to. It is up to you. So please, care about people feelings, he is our friend!

Weirdo

There are many types of people in the world. But I have never met one like this. He pushing you away while u want him so badly and comes to you when you are so over him. I wish he can understand when people said they don't won't to talk and they mean it especially when someone is going through a extremely hard time in their life. Have mercy and leave them alone. You do not have the right to mess with people life.